iWill improve

The tighter Her grip on me the better I dont want to be a casual slave I want to have the up most manners at all times.
I will speak only when spoken to when Mistress is around others I want them to see that I am not there for anyother reason than to be a servant. Every person that i interact will be Sir or Ma'am at all times.
I will go out of my way to serve others at all times. I want to make my Mistress look amazing by being the most well mannered slave i possible can be the most helpful and perfect slave I have lost this by thinking it is ok to be friendly because I am social but i realized this weekend that is no longer my role friends are not something I need I need my Mistress. I see people to focused on themselves and not enough on the one that matters and I will not fall into that rut.
I will no longer speak before my Mistress during a conversation unless expressed permission is give to open my mouth weather or not Mistress said something i felt that needed to be covered. If She did not cover it than I will put in in the back of my brain and send that person an email covering what I feel she did not or speak to them at a later time when I am dismissed.
 I will never curse because that makes a slave look bad it is bad manners and makes my Owner look bad. I see malha put her foot in her mouth all of the time even right in front of Mistress during a conversation and I know that i am guilty of the same thing and I will not let that happen any longer. At this time in my life my slavrey is of the upmost importanece me to ntohing else even comes close this is all that matters in my life. I must try hard to make it amazing to constantly progress the journey of Mistress Carrie and I. I belive elagance is important in an owner and manners and attentiveness very important in a slave. I believe that appearances do go a long way this is a concept that I used to not care about. But now because it is so important I observe more bad behavior and bad eddicate but I rarely see it from people who I respect and that is who I strive to be because as I said this is who I am now I am not what I once was but reborn a slave.
I will no longer half ass my life as Her servant.
I will understand that I am to have the upmost respect to everyone weather i like them or not I will not speak bad about them unless in complete private.
I will take the upmost pride in completeing every task I am given. I should not suggest why or why i should not do things. Eventhough at times Mistress seems to not think Her orders through it cannot hurt anything to do as I am told or at least put the effort into doing so.
I will wake up every weekday at 6 am to start Mistress's Coffee take my diet pills put my uniform on and begin my day I want my Mistress to wake up and start Her day right i want her to wake up feeling fresh and like Her day is no big deal. I will not fight to wake up I will wake up with a positive outlook on the day ahead. I will look forward the night before to the sound of the alarm waking me at an early hour to properly start the day of a slave. I want my Mistress to not have to wait on her coffee in the morning.
slave will never ever again complain about any situation what so ever to Mistress directly that is what its blog is for. slave will not care about being bored in the daytime or the evening it is here to be of service if it is bored it will ask if it can clean or do something productive otherwise it has no right to complain about idle time because there is ALWAYS something that can be done.
when being punished or hit in anyway sissy will show gratitude by thanking You and ask for another at all times. I will mantain composure and allow You to do what You wish with or to me when during punishment when the request for more is denyed slave will quickly adore Mistress feet to show gratitude for any act. It will not discourage You in anyway from anything there are no limitations what so ever no matter what fear there is pain is always tempory the pride in service is forever Mistress should never be inhibited from enjoying the ownership of Her property.

it is Mistress i love seeing them in my purse as I get my powder or lipstick to make sure my makeup is perfect for You. I love everything about being a fulltime sissy but my mindset is always wrong and that is changing thank You for waking me up today Mistress I adore coming to realizations. You prefer me to be femme that is what i should be. I would remember it was alot of work to prepare for you because i was so lazy now i eagrly welcome the ritual of waking up going to my room to prepare myself for You and putting my unifrom on my heels and wig maybe i will wake up at 5 so that i can shower and shave for the day so that my cufs can be locked on and short restrictive chain can be attached so my uniform cannot come off and my day is restricted my nice heavy collar and restrictive movement
slave ashe: remindes me through out the day that I am a servant
slave ashe: i have decided that if i am to eat in your presence I will present you my dog bowl as it serve more purpose than just humbleing me it forces me to eat much slower in turn filling me up faster. It also easily controls the protions of food that are eaten. If something is done to the food such ash being chewd up or having shit piss cigarette buts or mixing it with dog food anything that will make it less apptiseing will help my diet. Otherwise i will eat Your leftovers in the kitchen where no one can see i will do so quickly as to attend to Your needs and the needs of Your guests. This will help control Your portions because at times You will be concious of my hunger and I know You well enough to know that You will not allow me to starve even if it means sacrificeing Your own hunger.
slave ashe: I realize now that by restricting my self You will better be able to restrict and control me just like i did with my ashtray protcol it is now second nature to us both.


I have gained alot of weight and it stems mostly from my laziness this must stop it is in no way conducive of the figure of a sissy and makes my Mistress look bad in the process because I find my self spening my weekdays doing nothing but eating doing a short list of chores and not doing them well and waiting until the last min to do them. That shows no pride in my work and that is not good. I need to diet I need to excersize they say that excersize is a wonderful cure for depression and if that is infact what is casueing my laziness excersize and a clean envrioment is a good way to combat it. I need to lose weight I want to be the exact weight a female should be at my height. Exercise is also a great way to get energy and will motivate me to do my chores.

I will do my chores to completion I have note cards with detailed instructions on them and they do not get use there is no excuse why they should not be done every single day. I am going to make sure to follow through and complete them. Mistress is not here to motivate me i need to be my own motivator. She should not have to give any cleaning instructions other than the ones that are special the cards speak for themselves every day I will complete them.
I will do laundry every single day and I will not let Mistress's bras become so beat up bras and panties will be washes by hand and hung to dry I will not let her live like that. I will not allow her to struggle to find clothes. She dread that we do not have a dryer she should not even notice it should not effect her in anyway. I will look at hanging clothes as a prideful task that just makes my service that much more important.

Just as people who inspire be a better slave when I see people who are just "doing it wrong" it also motivates me to be better and better. malha had told me that she does not naturally submit to women and she needs a dom man in her life. I often feel the same way I struggle with the submission i feel to a man and wish often that I was owned by one. But then I remember the amazing connection i share with my Owner and best friend and wonder how on earth I could have thought anything different. A wise man said "One day you will find someone that comes into your life that makes you realize that you could not succeed with anyone else. You just have to be patient." That is great advise that has always worked for me. Because I have found that person that I know I truly could not live with out. This has more to do with the power exchange that we share than people realize. They think that just because we are in love and that we think alike and share so much that we would be together no in a Master slave dynamic but that is not true She is my Master and i Her slave and that is more beautiful than any normal relationship could ever bring.