Friday, October 21, 2011

bondage and silence

I was looking through photos and it hit me that in almost none of them am i in bondage ....I love bondage i love the way the restriction makes me feel i love the way my joints cramp, i love the anticipation of wondering when i am going to be released, i love the relief of feel when finally let loose from my confines. Bondage is after all the "B" in BDSM though in my owners house it would seem that mostly only the DSM applies. I have often wondered why this is, bondage brings so much more interesting elements to everyday life and play. When i have topped people i always try to incorporate bondage into the routine as much as possible. Weather it be the waiting game of being stuck in long term bondage and ignored or being in bondage of some for during play. Or weather it just be light bondage to make the subs life harder through the day and to restrict their movements. Maybe even bondage to force the sub to act an an object. Bondage can be used for punishment even there are so many ways to do bondage so its one of those things that just has enough variety to never get old. Especially if you have 2 subs the possibilities of doing tandem bondage are just as endless. Any sub knows the comfort and restriction that comes with being in any form of bondage brings a level of helpless submission that makes you feel tingly inside.

I was serving as my Mistress's tables yesterday and thinking "i love this" its silent. I love when my submission is silent, There doesnt always have to be some sort of banter. I have always been a very big fan of the speak when spoken to method of servitude. I like to be seen and not heard, acting as Mistress Carries object really helps fill that need and the protocol that comes with it. I was thinking as sam was cooking that i used to be so much like that i would force my self to have the protocol even if it was never told to me because i just took that much pride in my submission. If i wasnt told to do something I would not do it. I have no idea what happen to me. But this is something I would defiantly like to employ and i think if I do my Mistress will catch on aswell.

Another thing i have noticed while playing last night is that Mistress seems to like to kind of give a sampler of toys spending jsut a few mins on each toy... I wonder if She gets bored? or maybe Her add kicks in. I know people that can spend so much time playing just with one things focusing and useing it in different ways. Not that i mind Mistress Carries method of play everyone is diffrent I am just curious as to why it is done that way. Maybe shes is not playing the way she would like to play. I have told Her countless time I am ready to play in anyway she wishes as Her slave I trust Her and fully submit myself to what ever She would like to do in Her playroom.

It seems that in our everyday life things never get used we have an entire playroom at our disposel and we sit on the couch watching tv. While we are in the living room toys never get used like you can even gag the sub just to give them some form of use. I would even settle for Mistress holding a rideing crop. Outside of cuffs in daily life nothing in that room ever gets used outside of the rare occurrence we are in the room. When we were living out of suitcases it seemed to get used more then we we had it neatly displayed in the playroom. I often sit in the living room and stare into the play room wishing some of its contents would come out to me. I started opening the door the to play room hopeing that maybe Mistress would look into it and want to bring some stuff out just for something casual while she unwinds or relaxes. But nothing yet...

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